Surgery Update

28 Nov

Yesterday went well.  We had to leave our house at 5:30am, so we’re thankful for a Grandpa who wakes up daily at 4:30am to come get the boys off to school for us.

Cora got up without an argument and was amazed that we were driving when the sun was obviously still sleeping. A HUGE orange full moon made the drive full of wonder and conversation.

Dave and I wondered: Would it really be cancerous?  What would the scar look like? What kind of pain would she be in? Would she freak out like she did the last 3 times she was sedated?

Cora sat and stared at the moon.

We got to the hospital and got all checked in. Cora is finally back to the weight she was when she came home from Korea 7 months ago. (Am I a wimp that those two pounds totally feel like 20?)

We drew and colored and snuggled and watched a little TV until each doctor and nurse had their turn with us.  A shot of Versed made her care about nothing at all and then it was time to get all dressed in my surgery transporting gear.  Cora didn’t like the hat. 😉

Thankful they let me stay until she was sleeping and thankful for the medical team who know deep down how much it sucks to watch your child be sedated. No matter how many times you see it, it’s eerie and yucky.  A kiss on the cheek, a few arms around the shoulders by surgeons and anesthesiologists with promises to take good care of her and I was out.

Her surgery lasted 1 1/2 hours and the surgeon was able to get clear margins.  The mole was indeed malignant, but it is gone. (And yes, we have another 500+ to work on, but we’re on a marathon. Or one of those super marathons. Yes, super marathon. I’m sure they have better names.  Ooh, how about Iron Man. Yes, we’re on the Iron Man, people. No 100 meter dash here.) Though very upset when she woke up, as soon as the IV was able to be removed, she settled down, crying slowed down and she was able to sleep in my arms for a good hour. She woke up feeling much better and did great from there on out.

She has some stitches underneath the skin that will dissolve and she will need to be on restrictions for 3 weeks at home and school. (No gym! No recess! Boo!)

She has some swelling, but not as much as we were expecting.  But I read that day 3-4 can bring on swelling that wasn’t visible before.  She has some leakage, some pain and some discomfort, and we’re not even thinking about what might or might not be a scar at this point, but this child is such a trooper.

I have been reflecting on her “trooper-ness” and truly see it as a gift from God.  Yes, part of this is because of her first 5 years of life.  She learned to not complain, not cry, not be a burden.  But I think it’s more than orphanage behavior.  I think it is truly God’s gift of being able to bounce through things without the worry that so many people have. (ME!)  And she’s going to need this behavior as life goes on, and hopefully I’ll gain some strength from her.

Right now she’s sound asleep on the couch, the morning of skyping with grandma and grandpa, coloring and a quick stop to drop of Logan’s forgotten lunch all proving to be too much for the girl who bounded out of bed excited to put on her new sweatpants we got to lounge in today.  Reminding myself that she doesn’t complain, but that doesn’t mean she doesn’t feel it deep down.

As we were driving to the hospital yesterday, I talked to Dave about acceptance. Has he accepted this prognosis yet? Our future yet? Her future yet?  Have I?  That’s a new post all on its own.  Self-reflection time coming up.


4 Responses to “Surgery Update”

  1. Yvonne November 28, 2012 at 8:21 pm #

    So glad to hear that the surgery was successful (as in clear margins) and hoping for a good recovery for all of you. Thanks for the update.

  2. grammom November 28, 2012 at 9:40 pm #

    So sweet…love her tons!

  3. stephanie November 30, 2012 at 2:49 am #

    I always love to read your updates and your insights. So thankful the clear margins and that the hospitalization, sedation, etc. went pretty well.

    As for self-reflection and acceptance of the prognosis…well, I’m sure that is a bit like a marathon — or Iron Man — as well. To accept and comprehend the whole of it has got to be a bit overwhelming, and so perhaps bit by bit you take steps towards acceptance of her diagnosis as it affects your lives in this moment. Love and prayers to you!

  4. Kangkook December 3, 2012 at 2:24 pm #

    Thanks for your update. We will pray for Cora’s recovery.

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